Overwhelming darkness

5.22pm.

It is raining heavily outside. The feeling of loneliness and emptiness are covering me, in this dark and empty house.

The phone has been silent since noon. I've been staring at the laptop screen for 3 hours now. Listening to 2000s rock songs.

Saw a picture of me and thought that I look fat. Fatter than before. People might think that I am overreacting. I tried. But failed miserably.

Saw pictures of husband and wife spending time together. Why can't I have a moment like that?

Another Saturday away from family. Another weekend to spend all alone, in a stranger's place.

How many more Saturdays like this should I face?


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